Jiaru is my name. 110393 is my day.
Being a Fifteen year old.
Being an ordinary girl with ordinary dreams.
Canoeing is my passion.
Art is my love.
Dreams is the thing that keeps me going.
Even if I am sad/angry I will still try to manage a smile.
I have many dreams to be completed but I have set 3 things that is to be completed first :
1. YOG.
2. Get into SAJC.
3. Become a pilot.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
BACK BACK BACK!
Can't wait for everything to end in one weeks' time. :D
I think I need a break from seeing the mask people contort themselves into or should I say wear.? It's so eff-ing fake. I really want to tear down that mask from their face. I'm not naming people, but just really sick when I see that face. I've been super kind to nameless yet "it" calls me "shameless". Hah. This world is just like that.
I'm getting over it! :D
Moving on moving on. Shall not dwell on people who doesn't worth my attention.
Can't wait for tomorrow! :DDD EXERCISE!
Watched finish the show - Fu qi you an kang. Super nice but a little too short for a drama series.
I love the word :" Shi zhe sheng chun, bu shi zhe tao tai." It potrays the reality in one way or another. :)
I guess I should really take this words into stride for everything I do, but obviously I won't do anything to harm those innocent people around me. I want to put in a little love to everything I do and people around me , especially my family. :)
Got to go,
AUDIEUS!
m e s m e r i s e d 2:56 AM
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Graduation day for class 4E2'09 is over.
Thinking of that particular day, I seriously was emotional.
It is ironic, I wanted to leave that school as fast as possible and wanted all to end fast, but on that day itself I hoped that time would slow down.
It's been two years staying in a particular class. I have been changing classes since Sec 1 to 3.
I felt numb after changing classes each year. However, I stayed on in the same class for 2years.
Though my classmates does funny stuffs that is not at all memorable, it becomes memorable when we leave the school's vicinity.
The school wasn't at all awesome, but some of the teachers were. Teachers that taught us were really our acting parents. I can't express that kind of gratitude I have towards them.
8 more days, English O's will start. I doubt I'll have the time to even relax one bit.
I got to go.
Till then, AUDIEUS.Labels: all good things have to come to an end.
m e s m e r i s e d 5:30 PM
Monday, October 12, 2009
1 more month to the finishing line.
I guess I am falling sick soon, AGAIN. The same lethargic feeling is back and I really don't want to falter again.
Time seems to be running out, 2 weeks to O's and 4 more weeks to end. I really can't wait for O's to be over. I want to do lots of stuff that I have refrained myself to. Muscles are really turning to fats. :( More white hair is sticking out. Is this stress or is it that I am lacking some vitamin that I have not touched ?
Freaked out when I stood on the weighing machine. And yes, undoubtly girl's way of comforting oneself -whine. HAHA.
I am missing so many people. Especially the canoeists, both national and school team.
I need a real catch up after O's. My stamina is dropping, my eyes look droopy with each day passing by. I am running out of energy to finish the last lap. No, JiaRu, must hang on, MUST HANG ON!
Dark Vader(pyramid head) is crazy , gave us sooooo many paper and say that we should not feel overwhelmed by it. Even the Math is incomparable to the stack of papers. But I know that dark vader meant well and I truly appreciate although I am really whining about the workload. :/
Little brother is free from his PSLE, I am still struggling to keep pace. :(
SOON! EVERYTHING IS GOING TO END WELL!! :))))
Till then, AUDIEUS!Labels: everyone wants to be the someone there., nobody wants to be the last one there
m e s m e r i s e d 9:20 AM
Monday, October 5, 2009
Updating ! Updating ! Updating!
Sorry for not updating. Was too busy with Prelims and bursting one last time for 'O' levels.
It's really hectic, but I promise to update after O's which I can't wait for it to pass faster although I feel like an octopus right now, trying to juggle my subjects and "concising" my points! haha.
Till then, AUDIEUS!!!
m e s m e r i s e d 10:36 PM
Sunday, August 16, 2009
AHHHHH! I'm feeling super bad now. I hope people who came close to me didn't fall sick.
One of my classmate is H1N1 positive. And I fell sick on Friday which was very painful.I woke up feeling super lethargic and my throat was so sore that I had a hard time eating my breakfast. When I was taking my temperature, it shot 1.0 each time till it slows down and reached 37.8degrees. Had to go to the chemistry lab and I thought I was the only one in my class was sick, NO. 8 people fell sick( including me ), 6 stayed at home and 1 left after taking his temperature for a few times.
I had to go back to class(my fever subsided) with a mask cuz I had cough which triggered before taking my temperature in class. The mask is super gay cuz it was like blue/cyan colour and Mr Koh was making a joke out of me. Yeah, blue/cyan totally suits me. PEACE.
Played softball with that gay mask which was irritating as my sweat wet the whole mask.
After sweating out I felt alittle better but still feeling lethargic. Our recess was pushed back, which was sort of a "quarantine". But I liked it cuz my class had the whole canteen to ourselves. :)
I joined the sec1-3s for the special assembly to mark the 1 year countdown for the inaugural YOG. I hope nobody gets it =X. Worst still, I talked to the gold medallist national bowler, New Hui Fen, at a close range in an air-conditioned room! Hope she don't fall sick, like seriously.
Till then, Audieus.Labels: don't cast pearls before swine( 4E2 inside joke)
m e s m e r i s e d 6:33 AM
Thursday, August 13, 2009
LETHARGIC-NESS!
Feeling screwed, I am to stop training for 2months plus. gosh, thinking of my muscles turning into fats. Urgh, unsightly. But still, I am doing land training on my own with the help of Julienne telling me the daily sets. :)
Sleeping early, the next day I'll daze. Sleep late, the next day I'll be more energetic until a point of time where I'll be no difference from a walking zombie. That kind of feeling sucks especially when you can only see your teacher's mouth moving and you can't seem to hear anything, as if the teacher's frequency is above the audible range.
I really wonder if it is the haze that cause me to feel uncharacteristically lifeless, or is it just that my body isn't adjusted to my sleeping time. I'm starting to get sore throat, it seems that this is a point where my body is trying to tell me that I am to fall sick soon. Gosh, no, I hope not.
Many thoughts has ran through my mind, I've been thinking about canoeing in a negative way. It goes like this : "what if I stop training and screw up my strokes and stuff and I might not perform well enough next year to even have the slightess chance to go for YOG."
I feel quite demoralised when I paddled my last time with Julienne. She was sick for a week or two, yet she seems to be faster and yet I am at the back looking at the way she stroke and part further away from me. I really wonder if it was my strokes or was I just too tired after carrying stressball. My hands felt heavy, as if my hands were having weights locked onto my triceps and biceps. Suddenly another thought came in :" Is canoeing just brutal strength or perfect strokings?" I supposed it is both.
And I have this thought: sissy have made a point right whereby she told me her reasons of not joining the national team. She say:" Even if we can make our mark in Singapore, thrashing people above our age group. We may be fast, but internationally we are nothing." It's like a wake up call to make me want to study harder at the same time keeping my fitness at the highest level and I hope to make my mark out there, in the internationals.
I can't help but to think, and I think I am tired of thinking, I burn my brain cells over such stuffs and get white hair, and without taking any actions won't help. I'll really start striding, no matter how tired or lethargic I will be, I must persevere on and hop onto SA before continue-ing what I ought to do.
Till then, Audieus.Labels: action speaks louder than words.
m e s m e r i s e d 9:35 AM
Friday, July 31, 2009
25July
Competition day(national womens), I took k1-1000m(u19) and I came in first.The feeling of victory, once again it is overwhelming. Quite happy about it, but my left rib is hurting when I turn.( Thanks to that stupid NJC C1 rower who cut across the k2 boat which I was using with Sarah. I think I jerked too hard that either my veins/nerve near my left rib went wrong place or my muscle strained. )
My timing for heats k1-1000m (4mins52secs), but my final timing was shitty thanks to the strong headwind (5mins18secs).
Vidya came in 3rd in the same race as me, but I was proud of her :). Having her(being 14) to have to race with people ranging from age14-18?
26July
Took k2 with Sarah in 500m. And she's good! She took k1-500m and k2-500m with me, which was back to back. And she got 1st for her k1-500m. I'm happy for her :D. We(Sarah and I) thought that we were going to lose because we merely trained twice for that k2 event, but we got 2nd which we were quite surprised. We clocked 2mins07secs, I think it's our personal best :). Although we lost to Steph and Maxine, but we were ecstatic cause we really didn't expect this winning.
victory never tasted this sweet. :)
Went for dinner with the nat team at New York, which I only ate chocolate waffles with icecream( It's good :D). The apple flavoured cotton candy was too sweet that I had to drink 2 glasses of water to hydrate my mouth. I felt like I was going out in a big family(: . Lucky that my dad didn't screw me for being home after 10pm because I said I would probably be home at 9plus. HAHA.
27-31July
School day. Have the same hectic schedule that is packed with loads of remedials and night classes. I wasn't able to do my land training though, when I ran or do the pull-ups and stuff, my left rib hurt like a B****. I couldn't stand straight after doing 10 pull-ups. Even when I did my runs with sissy, at some angle when I twist, the acute pain hit me hard. I wasn't able to do water training on Monday :( CAT1 from 4.30pm-5.30pm. So I left MacRitchie after 10mins. I had to run in the rain back to school for my night class which starts at 6.30pm. My shoes was like totally soaked( water came in from the back of my shoes). HAHA. Bathing in school made me remember about those halycon days with bhs canoeists when we had camp in school. I fell out with that pussy who cannot pluck up his courage to even say a simple "sorry" to someone whom have went great lengths for him. And he just merely walked pass quietly, how stupid is that?
Went training on Friday, a 6x200m relay, my left rib ached when I first did the strokings but subsequently it was alright and it was fun although I hated sprints. Went home, ate and fell asleep. It was like a total burn out for the week.
Nothing much for now,
Till then, Audieus.
m e s m e r i s e d 8:11 PM
